I don’t know where to initially start with this – what with all the happenings that 2015 has brought me, I could’ve gone bonkers! Truth be told, this year wasn’t what I exactly anticipated. I would have anticipated otherwise, though: I should have been fit already, I should have started with my own business, I should have crossed all the books off my TBR list, and so on and forth. Horrifically, I got endless battles and struggles instead! I’d tell you why this year was more compelling to me, though: 2015 was a great journey, after all, thanks to all the lessons and the people who stayed with me.
It wouldn’t be quite possible to recount all the details that this year has encompassed for me, but my soul is quite on a gear to write something… meaningful. Know what I mean?
Here I was this year — gained a lot of flabs, but really happier, stronger, and more independent.
That’s what pretty much sums up my entire year: full of lessons. If I didn’t fail in so many things this year, then I wouldn’t have known how to stand up and reclaim myself.
I’d already come to the point this year where I abhorred myself for being so disorganized, for not achieving so much, for clearly tolerating mistakes as if it were regulars in my life.
But, know that, I now learn that they are indeed regulars in my life. Mistakes are what I’m made of, and I should be proud of it! Trial and error is not something I am definitely patient to contain, but this was what my year revolved in.
The world is my oyster, and I’m going for my dreams.
This post will be a reminder of a moment left in space when I pondered what I was supposed to be. If it weren’t for my cowardly intuitions, I wouldn’t have found the brave soul within me.
Likely, I have this tendency to rely solely on my safety net, to succumb in my own comfort zone and neglect upcoming changes. I have a fear for shifting forms in lives or whatever aspects. Though I’ve been eminent to be best friends with spontaneity, change still scares the shit out of me.
After all these years, it was quite hard to eradicate that from my system. From the looks of it, I’m not even halfway to being Ms. Confident, but I learned that however constant change is, your mind, soul, heart, and body will always compromise.
The best friendships are indeed the ones where you could find comfort, and best of all, a tummy-aching burst of laughter.
This 2016, I am taking myself up on a challenge.
This challenge is to closely draw both my passions and ethics altogether, so that I may form a (self) project. I admit that I’d been too much of a workaholic this year, and honestly, it hasn’t done me good at all! By the time December washed up its shores, I was already burnt out and feeling uninspired to work further on all my freelance stints. Now, even on holidays, I’m working because I’m closing up the gap of what I’d missed this month! (Really, the horror.)
The upcoming year will be my own kind of renaissance (rebirth), a starting revolution to closely associate myself with the throbbing desires of my heart to create art. I am no creative mind, but every time I piece my words, I find art. I will, to the best of my abilities, try this time to re-connect the passions that I’d lost (due to the hectic amount of time spent working on sedentary and stagnant jobs).
Fancy meeting these ladies during JaDine’s PressCon event here in Cebu.
And yes, I don’t doubt I am capable of reaching even beyond the stars (figuratively), if only I try hard. As they say, the sky is always the limit and that holds very true for me. I’d doubted myself far enough in 2015 to the point where my dreams and ambitions shrunk to the most horrible disposition. I will redeem and regain the principles I had firmly inculcated into my mind – and I hold that promise dear to myself, as I owe this self the gratitude for holding on this long.
Celebrating our 3rd Year Anniversary. Chasing dreams together since 2012.
This 2016, I am fighting for my dreams.
Here’s an honest confession: this year, I’d already given up my dream on becoming an engineer. If you know what that means, well, that’s it.
But after realizing everything and thinking about it clearly, I figured this out: I have all sorts of passion and I am going to go after all of them. Fortunately for me, I am a being pieced altogether with a variety of hobbies, interests, skills, and a tinge to always have the thirst to learn something new. Life doesn’t end now that I’ve stopped pursuing a long-term goal of mine (to become an engineer) – quite the contrary, I’m expanding myself up!
And now, I am most looking forward again to another exciting phase where I get to choose from a vast range consisting of dreams, bucket lists, #happylifegoals, and whatnot. It sounds dilapidated (for now, as I’m building myself up), but all the more adventurous.
Here’s the gist: When one thing doesn’t work out, or if you think what you’re pursuing right now is clearly not what you (really, really) want, it just means there are better options. It shows that there is still a chance for you to withdraw, discern again, and move towards a life of what you have greatly envisioned!
No doubt the best people in the world — my source of strength, love, and peace and the reason why I’m still pursuing my big dreams.
And here goes the question: So what if you have to start all over again?
I’ve got a whole year + an extra leap day to fill in! Ecstasy is running through my veins as I try to jump ahead and engulf myself into the wonders of the future.
This 2016, I vow to create more memories.
I’ve invested myself to countless hours just for my blog during the last couple of months, and everyone reciprocating all the love and support has made me beyond giddy and excited. But clearly, a lot is at stake every time I’m spending my time on social media. Sure, I will still be here, but I’m minimizing my online presence to focus more in the present and on to the future I had imagined myself to be.
Ate Ella & Ate Alyssa during the Pop District Bazaar | My fellow bloggers within the same blogging community.
For that as well, thank you, passersby and regular readers of mine, for helping me find the potential in my craft! Things are really a lot surreal until now – getting all those new gigs and sponsorships for the first time – it’s overwhelming, sure, but I’ve always embedded in mind that I wouldn’t be here if it weren’t for all my readers and blogging friends.
Before I end this, I’d just like to sincerely thank everyone once again for making Chasing Bleu a top finalist to two significant and momentous blog awards this year – the Bloggys 2015 Philippine Blog Awards & the Best Cebu Blogs Awards 2015!
Awesome #CebuFoodCrawl buddies during the BCBA 2015 Awards Night! — Photo by Kim Charlie
To my family and my second one (boyfriends’ parents and relatives), thank you for the inclination to help me every single time – emotionally, physically, spiritually, and mentally. I wouldn’t have gone far without your help.
To my favorite guy in the world, thank you for all your support and love. I am amazed at how we always strut throughout our struggles and still end up stronger. You will always be my man. Here’s to more adventures with you next year, my good ol’ food buddy, best friend, brother, photographer, and boyfriend all rolled into one! <3
I cannot wait to spend another year with you, my love — here’s to another set of ad(food)ventures!
To the ultimately inspiring people in my own blogging communities, thank you for guiding my entire blogging career without hesitance! Cebu Bloggers Society and Cebu Blogging Community are two different bodies, but we all aim to exude excellence in social good and media influence. Thank you for imparting your knowledge to me and us.
My lovely Bigby’s family!
Lastly, to the God above, for making all things possible for me – thank you. Despite the struggles and disappointments, my faiths wavered, my life all broken down, I give my great thanks for letting me have a year well done.
Happy New Year to all and may you shine the brightest this 2016! 🙂